I woke up this morning with an agenda. I had on my mind what I needed to do, to make things right, to make life easier, to fix everything.
One thing I'm learning about myself is that I am a fixer. When things are going wrong, my brain starts devising and scheming and plotting trying to figure out a solution. When I can fix something, I get a little rush of excitement and feel powerful. I like taking care of ugly situations for people to make them feel better. So, this morning, I had on my mind that I was going to do that very thing...work to make it all better.
But God had other plans. All morning, while devising my plans for the day, I just felt "off." Have you ever felt like that? Well, I've felt like that enough to know that God is tryin' to tell me something, so I better listen. And today it was, "Chill out!"
He didn't want me rushing off to make it all better. He wants to make it all better and wants me to wait on Him. Ick. I hate waiting. But I'd rather wait on God than get myself in a big ol' mess trying to rush and do things my way...I've learned that lesson the hard way too.
So, I took a deep breath and just stayed put. "Be still and know that I am God." Is what I heard.
Ok God...I will.
And for two wonderful, generous givers, Emily and Kathy, here is a song for you. Enjoy!